ON BEING GAY

I am a gay/bi male, and spent 30 years in the closet, being married, children, and having the perfect "family" life. Only perfection was a lie, and one single "mistake" away was total chaos. I cheated on my wife and family for over 10 years, keeping it in the closet, several times just seconds or minutes from being caught. Did I like living a lie? No. But Society and Christianity taught me that being gay was wrong, that I’d go to hell, that it was unnatural, an abomination to God. Did it feel like any of those things? No. I felt normal. Did I make a choice to be gay? No. Did you make a choice to be Straight? I imagine not. Was I in the closet because that felt normal or natural? No, I was in the closet because of society, and had someone found out my secret I would have been humiliated, possibly to the point of suicide.


When I was still married and cheating on my family, I lived a continuous lie, any time I was somewhere other than where I was expected to be, I had an alibi. Imagine how that can affect your well being and mind. When I finally came out it was with the encouragement of a friend, who was gay and had been out for most of his adult life, I saw how easy it was for him, not having to remember what the lies were he had told, hours, days, months, or years ago, and how his family and friends were accepting, loving, and didn’t treat him any differently than they would have treated anyone else “treat others as you would like to be treated”


One of the 10 commandments is Thou Shalt Not Lie. My entire life was a lie, if your going to count which sin is greater, and I dont believe that being gay is a sin since God made me that way, then i would think that the 10 commandments would be the 10 biggest sins, being gay is not on that list. Yes you could say it falls under adultry, but if gays were allowed to get married then it would no longer be adultry. I would imagine there isn't a Christian alive today or ever that hasn't lied at sometime in their life, and technically as far as the bible goes looking on someone with lust is also adultry, so I would be willing to say that most christians are living at the same level of sin as gays